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Wednesday, October 9, 2013

The Land of Double Rainbows

I keep thinking about The Style Guide now that it's almost the ten-year anniversary of our breaking up (still another 3 years to go before we reach ten years post-divorce, but that's another story).

In an earlier chapter of the Style Guide, I wrote about how one of your goals should be reaching a point where you have to stop and think about the name of the guy you used to be married to - it's stopped being part of who you are, and he becomes "just some guy," indistinguishable from him, and that one, and what's his name over there. 

In this chapter of the Style Guide, I've discovered a new plane of existence.  After years, years of moving in the same or similar circles and having to either grit my teeth or consciously not roll my eyes in a variety of awkward situations, I've moved on.  Not just emotionally, but out of town.  Into another county even.  Since Purl turned 18, I'm no longer under any legal obligation to give him my new address.  I didn't either.  I didn't even have to do it willfully.  There's a new scope to this absence in my life, and I like it.

My new town could be called the Land of Double Rainbows.  It's a big valley, not very developed.  It's wrapped with hills, not mountains, and there are fewer firs, and they're up higher.  It's sunny.  A bunch of my houseplants got burned over just a few days (in October) from sitting near windows with Western exposure.  And something about the way the light in general bounces around makes rainbows frequently after it rains.  Usually you see the whole bow, not just an arc.  Often they are doubled. 

It's great.  It's a great place to live geographically, and it's a great place to be living post-divorce-wise.  No more forced politeness, which was always completely one-way anyhow.  No more pretending that we just grew apart and get along great.  Just me, my space, and lots of double rainbows.

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